Well girls I have to say I should know that when you write about something, you get attacked there. Boy, did it happen this week! The beginning of the week started out amazing you all were so loving with your comments and shares, I was reassured that I was walking in my calling. The bug of discouragement showed up and bit so hard Friday though. Friday I was beaten and run over by the mac truck of life. I was consumed by the social agenda that is attacking America.
See, I thought in my little mid-western town we were safe for awhile, unfortunately that was not the case. My school district was faced with what to do when a boy walks into the girls room looking like a boy. In the social uproar, that has been my fear. That boys and men would try to take advantage, and it happened. As you can imagine, the mama bear inside let anger and fear consume me. I do not think this is a subject to ignore, but it can’t be allowed to dictate life and it dictated my Friday.
Saturday came and fear lingered. Fear for my kids and myself. Fear for what the future holds. Fear. Fear. Fear. Anxiousness joined in because we are in the midst of car shopping….uh, can you say ughhhh! I think that is a true test for marriage! We haven’t car shopped in over a decade. This is long over due but scary to commit to a payment and to have to decide on which vehicle to have for another decade. I am fairly certain that premarital counseling should include car shopping!
As Saturday came to close my sweet daughter began to help my heart be realigned. She asked to color together in my bed, after coloring for a bit she said “Mom, lets read the bible.” We opened to Luke and she read chapter nine to me aloud.
We talked about the feeding of the 5000 and what the disciples must have thought. I have to tell you child faith is awesome. I asked her if she was a disciple and Jesus said he could feed near to 10,000 people (guessing on women and children) with 5 loaves and 2 fish would she think that sounded crazy? She said nope, Jesus could do it. We also discussed how Jesus provided a leftover basket for each disciple. I said to her I think Jesus wanted to show them when they have a need he not only can provide but he can provide enough so that everyone can have LEFTOVERS!!
That applies to us, if we have a need He will not only supply for the need but give over and above.
For real, can God get anymore personal!? I needed that reminder in that moment desperately!
God is so gracious and loving to us. It is so easy to get consumed and overwhelmed in this world. It’s not an if, only a when. What we do next determines our day though. Do we live in fear or allow ourselves to be realigned? Sometimes we are so worn out that someone else has to take us by the hand and help us find Him again.
If you find yourself drowning in fear, take my hand and listen to the Father.