His Plan Alone

Hi Girls! I wanted to say thank you to all those who entered my birthday contest and sent me birthday love (I’m going to tell myself that you sent love because you love me not because I bribed you!) Sarah was the lucky winner and I emailed her a bit ago. Sarah be sure to check your email, I want you to be blessed with your copy of God Is Able! 

 

This week, amidst the birthday celebration here, I found myself along with my community wrestling through a really tough week. We as a community found ourselves rocked to our very core. I landed in a spot of really questioning God, I don’t think I was alone in that spot. I questioned the very existence of a God I love so much. Questioning His way for man. Questioning His purpose of earth, if he wanted to create beings why not just create us into heaven.

Why is there pain?

Why tragedy?

Why loss?

Why unfairness?

Why do some live with nothing, some eek by and some have more than they know what to do with?

Why do some suffer their entire time on earth?

It all can seem like a cruel joke. 

 

The reason for these questions, these moments of crying out to the Lord angry sobbing tears, is that last weekend tragedy struck our small town. A young girl who bravely fought cancer since preschool age passed away, after fighting most of her life, the battle ended. The same weekend a high school girl was involved in a car accident leaving her and another woman with significant head trauma and a young mother delivering a baby who would never breath a breath of oxygen. 

 

These events called me to question God as I sat on the floor of my war room hurting, not understanding and flat out mad at the unfairness this world offers. In that moment with tears streaming down my face, washing more make up off with each rivulet, I knew to open to Isaiah 41 and to read to the end of the chapter. That one chapter gave me a peace for every question, every angry fist shake. 

 

It caught my attention right away in verse one when it opens with “Listen in silence before me….Bring your strongest arguments. Come now and speak.” I had given my arguments and knew it was time for silence. As I read on, verse 4 says Who has done such mighty deeds, summoning each new generation from the beginning of time? It is I, the Lord, the First and the Last. I alone am he.” This answers one of my whys. That He alone knows the plan. He knew the plan before the beginning and already knows the end of the plan.

 

Is it wise for an ant to judge the tree growing taller because it blocks the sun from its hill? No, there is purpose to the tree growing up taller. The fruit that will fall and feed the ant is just one aspect of the purpose for the tree growing there. Had the ant had its way, it would have missed out on the longer term blessings because it could only see the very tiny piece of the picture. This is true for us in the position of the ant. It would be unwise for us to judge the bigger picture only because we have yet to eat from the fruit. 

 

This is where faith steps in, my best friend and I decided while we sipped coffee pondering my whys. Faith that there is a plan bigger than ourselves and one event. Trust has to reign, trust in His provision that he doesn’t intend disaster but a hope filled future. Laying claim that he works all things for the good of those who love Him as Romans 8:28 tells us. 

 

He works all things for the good of those who love Him. | Me, Coffee & Jesus

The question still arises from my heart, because His word says have faith that can move mountains and they will move (Matthew 17:20) pray and seek me with your whole self and I will answer (Jeremiah 29:13) why not bring healing? With prayers going out for healing, why not heal a broken body? Why do two parents have to say good-bye? Why does a sister have to grow old without her confidant?

 

WHY??

 

The answer is the simplest yet the hardest to understand. An answer that I already knew but needed reminded of. We don’t get to and don’t need to understand. God’s plan is His alone and it isn’t our place to dictate the plan.

we don't need to and don't get to understand. Me, Coffee & Jesus

Our place is surrender anger and bitterness over to Him.

To pick up obedience of continued prayer and trust.

To seek joy from Him and the glory that is Him.

To worship Him when our heart is broken and bleeding from grief.

That is our position in the plan. 

 

 

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This week feature is Micah with her post When You Question Your Calling you’re going to want to be sure to read this! It will encourage your heart to keep walking into where the Lord is leading you. 

 

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Comments

  1. “Trust has to reign, trust in His provision that he doesn’t intend disaster but a hope filled future. Laying claim that he works all things for the good of those who love Him as Romans 8:28 tells us.” This is what I have to fall back on every time I start to doubt or wonder why. I remind myself that God is good. He has everything under control and my job is to trust. And He gives a peace that only He can give. Blessings to you, Winter! Sorry to hear about all the sad happenings in your community. May God send comfort.

  2. Winter, I saw that in our local paper about the girl that was killed. Really sad. I saw their volleyball team played Valley. It was an emotional match I heard. Valley has had their share of tragedies in the past few years. Just a couple of weeks ago, a co-worker lost his young daughter in a horrible car accident. We all are heartbroken. We don’t have any answers do we? What we do have is the “God of all comfort.” Jesus mourned too. In fact He bore our sufferings, He is familiar with our pain. Aren’t you glad we have a God like this? Take care.

  3. Winter, my first years working as a counselor I often ended my day feeling dazed and wondering why God allowed so much pain to touch some people. Over the years I saw that God’s grace, like anesthesia, is dispensed to the “patient” not for the onlooker. He gives each of us grace that suits our role on our journey, not grace to live another’s journey. Randy Alcorn wrote, “The faith that can’t be shaken is the faith that has been shaken.” May God comfort you and your community.

  4. Sounds like we had similar weeks. I too have been in that same place of just wanting to stomp my foot and say; “it’s not fair!” My post has similar revelations, but I will say as I move away from the events that rocked me I look harder for God and I believe that is the exact, best outcome. It’s truly all we can do. Trust and seek. Praying for peace that passes understanding friend! much love, kim

  5. Powerful post, Winter! Your words brought me to tears. My heart goes out to your community and everyone who suffered a loss. I am praying for them all. GOD bless you, Love! 🙂

  6. Winter, so sorry to hear that your week was rocked with tragedy. You have turned it into words of wisdom and power. I am also a person who comes to God with my fists clenched, demanding that He defend His actions. So hard headed and hard hearted.
    He is patient, and I am learning, but it is slow.

  7. So sorry for these tragic events. May our God bring His strength & comfort to all. Praying.

  8. very powerful and thought provoking post. I read it slowly to savor your words. coming over from the Beauty link up. will visit some new bloggers I see on your link up. Thanks for hosting this.

  9. Isaiah has a way of making you stop and pay attention doesn’t he? 🙂 I read those words today and then over in Isaiah 43 vs 2, I was searching for the Kleenex box and praising God as I was wading deep in His Truth. Can I encourage you to take time and visit Isaiah 54, too? It is a gem…oh, so close to my heart, and I think you will love it.

    I am sorry for all the losses, but so glad He met you and touched your heart in the midst of your wrestling.
    Blessings,
    Dawn

  10. Oh, Winter, what questions we will have when we come face to face someday, right? Or maybe it will all be answered, or even not matter anymore once we go be with Jesus! I always get stuck trying to minister to others in this question. Only that I know the only way through it all is with Him – without Him there is no purpose and no hope.
    I always love stopping here, Winter!
    BTW – We are both October babies 🙂 Such a great month! 😉
    Blessings and smiles,
    Lori

  11. I’m so sorry for your losses, experienced by you and your community this week, Winter. But I am thankful that they are pointing you, and hopefully others, toward God. He can handle our questions, our anger,our pain. And bring the healing needed. God bless you.

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